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There are currently 61 messages.

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GINA

Comments:
my soulmate committed sucide on august 11 2008. he shot himself in the heart while laying on my side of the bed. could somebody please contact me via email. i think i need some help from someone who has experienced this kind of tradgedy personally. i feel so hopeless and empty like i am a walking dead person that has been left behind. sorry about the grammar.

Name:

Superwoman

Comments:
hen Superwoman gives up. I'm a single mother who 18 year old (still in high school) son has been blinded by his $15,000.00 settlement. His father, auntie, and grandmother are all on drugs and haven't really been in his life. Now he has money they have brain washed him to trun against me. They told him that I am stealing his money and he should run away to their house. I lost my job last year. We where 2 house notes behind and I made he pay ONE house note. So, his God-Mother who I haven't spoken with in years, told him she will help sue me and put me in jail. Then he could live with her for $500.00 a month, but he has to buy his own food. He felt that our house was a waste and I shouldn't have a big house (3 bedrooms). We live in this house for going on 9 years. He told me if I loss the house he has some place to go..."wow" My son has always been respectful, Homecoming King, Star Football player and most pop. student in 2008-09. He just started to change after he received this money. I throught if I gave him half of his money ($7000.00) he would be ok, but his girlfriend mother is saling him a $6000.00 car, even after I say he couldn't have a car because insurance was to much for him and I to pay

Name:

Alex

Comments:
I have been home schooled since 3rd grade and never met anyone who has liked me until 12-20-08. Today 02-11-2008, I just lost my only true friend I've had in 8 years. I'm so hollow and lost without her. I'm usually very good at hiding my feelings from the world, but when people start noticing I'm depressed, something is very wrong. I don't know what to do with my life. One moment I have a box knife poised above my wrists and the next, I feel like doing something more permanent. I can't deal with the pain anymore. It's just too much to bear. I need help. I can't tell my family they would freak out and I can't tell my friends because I have none. I'm hopeless. Nobody cares about me. I would be better off dead than causing other people to be miserable.

Name:

Alex

Comments:
I just lost my only true friend I've had in 8 years. I'm so hollow and lost without her. I'm usually very good at hiding my feelings from the world, but when people start noticing I'm depressed, something is very wrong. I don't know what to do with my life. One moment I have a box knife poised above my wrists and the next, I feel like doing something more permanent. I can't deal with the pain anymore. It's just too much to bear.

Name:

Harold

Comments:
I am at the absolute end of my rope. I have absolutely no one and I mean no one to talk with and am using this medium as another way to try to talk with someone. Please listen to me as I do not want to do this. The loneliness and despair are eating me alive and I am trying everything within my power to try to help myself and it is not working. Please someone tell me that life can get better.

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Jessica

Comments:
I am pregnant and my boyfriend already has kids so he has told me that in order to be able to take care of the children he already has he will have to leave me if I keep the baby. I have a beautiful daughter who means the world to me that I have raised without a father but I dont know if I can do it again. I am so torn. I dont want to have an abortion, I dont think I can, I understand that there are many situations where women need to, and I'm sure to some (including my boyfriend) this is one of them. It just feels so wrong. I dont have any one to talk to. The man who I have always gone to for love and support is so mean and negative right now. Do I have any other options? Does anyone have any advice for me? I have been depressed before, but I have never felt so close to just giving up. I need some strength so I can be there for my daughter.

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very upset and stressed women

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I am so scared I have 3 kids and a Husband you would think by looking at me that I am happy and care free but all i do is cry and the hurt wont go away I have told noone but I feel the world would be a better place if I were not in it all I do is work to pay bills that wont go away I am scared of losing my house husband is laid off so i work extra hours to make up for it but it seems i am not good enough i cant do it i have nobody to confide to tell my feelings to my husband just dont seem to want to hear it and i feel like i am letting him down if i say anything negative towards him or the fact he is not working i am so alone .... I feel alone in a crowded room god take me away from all this i want to lay down close my eyes and never wake up everyone would be better please just take me away

Name:

Bonnie Berger

Comments:
long explanation precedes this, but the outcome of this message is that my daughter's husband, Buddy, took his own life in October. She is handling it fairly well, considering the mess she has been left with. She has been living with me since then. I am the one who is having the terrible time. Whenever she leaves I cry like my heart is broken, which it is. I attended your workshop on suicide at St. Marks after the mother of twims took her life. I saw the signs, but no one took me seriously, and now I feel that I should have been more responsible in doing something. Even his own father did not check on him when I told them the gun sase was open and the gun was missing. And now I greive for Buddy for the pain and utter loneliness he must have felt, pulling the trigger with their wedding picture in his hand. That scene flashes in my mind. I have a counselor, but when I talked to him I felt he had no compassion for Buddy---which is what I am feeling from many, including family. No one who is thinking clearly and not in pain would take his own life. Why are they saying it was his choice? When someone is that disturbed, they have left signs and no one comes to his aid (though he made it difficult

Name:

robert

Comments:
With the economy and the country the way it is. Why would person not thing about killing themselves. When you are alone and have no friends.......

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Gina M. Siegmeier RN

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AM A "REGISTERED NURSE" WHO'S PROFESSION LET HER SLIP BY THE WAY SIDE. I THINK THEY ALL THOUGHT I WOULD KNOW WHAT WAS HAPPENING!!! PAY ATTENTION TO THE "CLUES"...NOT TAKING CARE OF YOUR NEW BORN "TWINS" AT THE AGE OF 39 IS "SIGNIFICANT"!!!I TOOK MY "FIRST" OVERDOSE WHEN MY KIDS WERE ONLY 8 MONTHS OLD...SINCE THEN MY "LIFE" HAS BEEN "HELL" I CAN'T BEGIN TO COUNT THE NUMBER OF TIMES I HAVE TRIED TO TAKE "MY LIFE" SINCE THEN...I HAVE TRIED TO CUT MYSELF, HANG MYSELF, CARBON MONOXIDED MYSELF, AND OVERDOSED MYSELF TO "DEATH"...IN 2005 I WAS "CLINICALLY DEAD" THEY TOLD EVERYONE TO "PRAY"...HOWEVER, I AM STILL HERE!!! NOT SURE WHY "GOD" SPARED ME...I HAVE A STORY TO TELL "SOMEDAY"...I AM A "MULTIPLE SUICIDE" ....... "SURVIVOR"........ YOU WILL SOMEDAY READ MY BOOK AND HEAR ME SPEAK TO OTHER "WOMEN" ON PPD!!!!MY HEART BLEEDS FOR A BOY WHO LOST "HIS" LIFE AT THE "YOUNG AGE" OF 16....I CARRY YOU WITH ME IN "MY HEART" FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!YOU ARE NOT "FORGOTTEN!" GOD FORGIVE ME PLEASE...I NEVER MENT TO HURT ANY ONE ELSE...AND I HAVE "HURT" MANY!!!! RIP "MATTHEW" WALK WITH ME AND BE MY "STRENGTH"...HELP SHOW ME THE WAY...GUIDE ME LIKE A

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