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kim u.

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my stepson killed himself in 2002 and i think i am going to od this weekend.a lousy day at work and the thought of going back there on monday and pretend to be up and shiny when i cant control these moods is just too much.

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Linda

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I lost my sister, August 23rd, 2009. She left me, a devoted husband, two teen boys, my daughter, and my parents behind. This is my letter to her that I read at her wake. To My Sister- Julie Words can not describe the loss or the depth of the grief I am feeling right now and forever. On February 14, 1966, my parents brought me home a gift-it was my sister. Our birthdays were four days apart. I thought I had the best gift ever. And not only was she my gift, she was my friend, my partner in crime, my rock n’ roll star and yes, my sister. She has left us but not our memories or our hearts. I wrote this poem for you- Julie, my dear sister. Weep not for me For my sun has set My last song-sung My yoke has been removed My burden eased I leave you to carry on But I am not gone I am in your sigh A glimpse from the corner of your eye A whisper in your ear And as the sun rises tomorrow And you feel the warmth Remember I was the gift from yesterday. I miss you from your favorite, one and only sister.

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the quite

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I've been dealing with this for years now yet i had no idea what it was till a year ago. now with a name to the feeling i have been given back some sanity. life can be cruel and it has been for most and the reason why we dont seek help when were in these situations is because of the response we get. 'dont do it. itll get better. life has so much to offer. your just running away from your problems.' i beg to differ, we are running straight into them... for some it may never end.. we dont need compassion or a shoulder to cry on. we need someone who thinks the same. it is only through conversation of such subjects that you will make it out alive. not conversations of hope. sometimes it is better to retreat to find the answers , than march straight into them unprepared. so for those who wish to talk about it and not the future of where itll lead then let me hear you speak.

Name:

GINA

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my soulmate committed sucide on august 11 2008. he shot himself in the heart while laying on my side of the bed. could somebody please contact me via email. i think i need some help from someone who has experienced this kind of tradgedy personally. i feel so hopeless and empty like i am a walking dead person that has been left behind. sorry about the grammar.

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Superwoman

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hen Superwoman gives up. I'm a single mother who 18 year old (still in high school) son has been blinded by his $15,000.00 settlement. His father, auntie, and grandmother are all on drugs and haven't really been in his life. Now he has money they have brain washed him to trun against me. They told him that I am stealing his money and he should run away to their house. I lost my job last year. We where 2 house notes behind and I made he pay ONE house note. So, his God-Mother who I haven't spoken with in years, told him she will help sue me and put me in jail. Then he could live with her for $500.00 a month, but he has to buy his own food. He felt that our house was a waste and I shouldn't have a big house (3 bedrooms). We live in this house for going on 9 years. He told me if I loss the house he has some place to go..."wow" My son has always been respectful, Homecoming King, Star Football player and most pop. student in 2008-09. He just started to change after he received this money. I throught if I gave him half of his money ($7000.00) he would be ok, but his girlfriend mother is saling him a $6000.00 car, even after I say he couldn't have a car because insurance was to much for him and I to pay

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Alex

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I have been home schooled since 3rd grade and never met anyone who has liked me until 12-20-08. Today 02-11-2008, I just lost my only true friend I've had in 8 years. I'm so hollow and lost without her. I'm usually very good at hiding my feelings from the world, but when people start noticing I'm depressed, something is very wrong. I don't know what to do with my life. One moment I have a box knife poised above my wrists and the next, I feel like doing something more permanent. I can't deal with the pain anymore. It's just too much to bear. I need help. I can't tell my family they would freak out and I can't tell my friends because I have none. I'm hopeless. Nobody cares about me. I would be better off dead than causing other people to be miserable.

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Alex

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I just lost my only true friend I've had in 8 years. I'm so hollow and lost without her. I'm usually very good at hiding my feelings from the world, but when people start noticing I'm depressed, something is very wrong. I don't know what to do with my life. One moment I have a box knife poised above my wrists and the next, I feel like doing something more permanent. I can't deal with the pain anymore. It's just too much to bear.

Name:

Harold

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I am at the absolute end of my rope. I have absolutely no one and I mean no one to talk with and am using this medium as another way to try to talk with someone. Please listen to me as I do not want to do this. The loneliness and despair are eating me alive and I am trying everything within my power to try to help myself and it is not working. Please someone tell me that life can get better.

Name:

Jessica

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I am pregnant and my boyfriend already has kids so he has told me that in order to be able to take care of the children he already has he will have to leave me if I keep the baby. I have a beautiful daughter who means the world to me that I have raised without a father but I dont know if I can do it again. I am so torn. I dont want to have an abortion, I dont think I can, I understand that there are many situations where women need to, and I'm sure to some (including my boyfriend) this is one of them. It just feels so wrong. I dont have any one to talk to. The man who I have always gone to for love and support is so mean and negative right now. Do I have any other options? Does anyone have any advice for me? I have been depressed before, but I have never felt so close to just giving up. I need some strength so I can be there for my daughter.

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very upset and stressed women

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I am so scared I have 3 kids and a Husband you would think by looking at me that I am happy and care free but all i do is cry and the hurt wont go away I have told noone but I feel the world would be a better place if I were not in it all I do is work to pay bills that wont go away I am scared of losing my house husband is laid off so i work extra hours to make up for it but it seems i am not good enough i cant do it i have nobody to confide to tell my feelings to my husband just dont seem to want to hear it and i feel like i am letting him down if i say anything negative towards him or the fact he is not working i am so alone .... I feel alone in a crowded room god take me away from all this i want to lay down close my eyes and never wake up everyone would be better please just take me away

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